Ooc: Oof, this is really hard to do, and there isn’t really going to be an easy way for me to say this at all. I loved being here, I really did, but I think it’s time for me to turn in. 

It’s so weird, I never, ever thought I would ever say I was dropping Garnet or the rest of my RP accounts. Garnet especially. Over the past year (give or take a few months) she’s really grown a lot on me. I feel like I can relate to her a lot, and I hold her very near and dear to my heart. This blog and this RP community means an awful lot to me, and it makes me feel so silly admitting how much I really do love it. 

I’ve made so many memories here. I’ve grown up so much from being here. I met some of the best friends I could ever have from here, Julz, Fuu, Alice, and many more that I hold high. I met Ven/Izana here, and I love him more than anything in the whole entire world. I met Repli here. Someone who changed my life so dramatically. Someone who helped me pull my head out of the clouds and realize there is more to the world than what I’ve been imagining it to be all these years. 

Not only have the people here changed me as a person, but this place did too. I love nearly every person here, and I’m always, always going to remember it. 

I’m deactivating because of a few reasons, really. I feel like I don’t do Garnet too much justice anymore. I feel like I had her at one point, but I really lost her. I can’t come on here and be IC or anything. Roleplaying, itself, has really faded with me. It’s not as fun as it used to be. I feel like I shouldn’t just hoard Garnet as a character for forever, not doing her justice, never getting online, and only posting pictures every now and then. That’s awful to do, to FFTumblr and for the character itself. ;_; 

I also need more time to myself. I feel this huge guilt trip if I don’t get on the computer and at least get on MSN. It’s hard to explain, but because I feel guilty about not getting on and not wanting to get on, I stay online on my personal and lurk all day long. I don’t have time to do things for school, for work, or for upcoming college planning. I can’t handle three RP accounts, a personal, a good future, and my sanity right now. I want to be able to relax a little bit. 

I’m not completely leaving Tumblr ! If you want to stay in touch, my personal is right here. Also, if you want to talk over MSN, I’ll have adventurergarnet@live.com always open as well as lapinxmignon@live.com (personal MSN.) 

I guess that I’m kind of scared about leaving. I don’t want to be left out of things that I’ve always felt included in. I don’t want to lose the people that I’ve met here. But life is just really strange, sometimes, I guess ? I’m scared, but I also feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, too, for getting this out and finally doing this. 

I’m not deleting this Tumblr, or Shiki, or Mikoto. I don’t have the heart to do that, but if you unfollow those blogs, I won’t blame you at all ! I’m just keeping them for my own sake, really. Even though I know this change will be good for me, I’m still sort of upset when I think about it. 

I don’t really know what else to say, heh. n__n;  
I’m really sorry, I love you, and see you around ? x3 

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